Finally, the time has come. I am a skin type 1, I have very pale skin and have never gotten a tan. I have gotten freckles that make me look alive when I am burned as well. Since I was a kid I have felt awkward for being so pale and hearing about this drug all those years ago gave me a little hope but having epitan/clinuvel postpone it every time when it was so close made me think "ok so enough's enough, I'm gonna do this". I had trouble getting it, I originally tried ordering a year ago but it was seized by customs. This time around I decided to be smart about it and order it around the busy Christmas time and hey I got it My supplier is Melanocorp.
 
Harmless comments have always been very harmful when people address my skin. Having gotten enough when I was compared to a dead body when taking off my sweater I just lost interest in sunbathing. I haven't done so for many years... But hey, enough with the sobbing, I'm going to start tonight. I'll be starting low (0.5 mgs each day - mixing 1 ml of sterile water - until someone tells me why it's better to use more). After a week or so I'll bump up the dosages if everything goes well.  
 
I just hope I don't end up looking like the elephant man, being all tanned with some disgusting side effects. From what I've read nobody's ended up like that poor fellow. So, I'm crossing my fingers here.
 
I want to take good pictures and post them but I haven't taken a before picture simply because the lighting outside wasn't good enough - it was too sunny and yellow. So hopefully I'll take a before picture either tomorrow or the next day.
 
Wish me luck!   It's one small step for you, one giant leap for Polarbears.

There's a lot of type 2's in xxxxxxx. But type 1's are just as rare as anywhere else. If my skin had a natural glow to it as it does on type 2's, I wouldn't be here today .... There's pale... and then there's "Oh my God! Are you sick? Get some sun you corpse, you're blinding us, hahaha.... haha.... hah.... ahhh... mmmm...."  
 
And hey even though it's not sunny here all year round we do have tanning beds (which are used a LOT!).  
 
It's just as awkward being a pale person in this country as any other country. But most of all I just want to look healthy. I hate my skin, from the bottom of my heart.
 
P.S. Yes, you'll find those tanning wipes everywhere here... this nation has a lust for tanning.. But those wipes suck big time! Especially on type 1 skin

thanks aussiegirl   and I'm sure if I get the results, I'll probably more than just love my skin...
 
Anyways...
 
Day 1 : It's 4:02 AM and it took me ages to preload the syringes. I did 6 x 0.5 mg loaded syringes and then I planned on doing 7 x 1 mg loaded syringes. The whole process took me way longer than anticipated (was feeling very nervous - sweating like a pig).
 
Here's my problem.. When there were three syringes left to fill, I had almost nothing in the vial. I had mixed 1 ml of sterile water with the melanotan II. So I felt like three whole mgs were going to waste... But then I shot a little more sterile water into the vial so I'd be able to get some out of it. Those are going to be the mystery syringes. Not really sure how much melanotan II is in them.  
 
Oh, am I the only one getting those bubbles EVERY SINGLE time?! I retract melanotan II from the vial and get an air bubble so I withdraw the needle, flick it a little and the bubble goes up... Then I try to shoot the bubble back into the vial but the bubble decides the top is its home and after 300 tries I stop arguing with the damn bubble and let it stay there. What is the solution to this problem?  
 
Also, when withdrawing the needle from the vial... a little melanotan II seems to squirt up out of the vial, what is the deal with that? It doesn't happen to the sterile water when drawing from it.  
 
To the shooting part....
 
Did 0.5 mgs - felt a little sting but nothing I couldn't take. Then there was the pinching sensation that lasted a few minutes. I felt a mild nausea almost straight away (after about 5 minutes or less) and I still have it. I also feel a little dizzy, almost as if I've had a few beers. I got the facial flushing for a very brief time, but sadly no boners yet.
 
I put all of the syringes in the freezer. When taking each one out, can someone tell me how long I should wait before using it? Thanks.

Hi PB, you finally took the plunge!  Congrats!    Anyway, a few tiny bubbles won't hurt.  I just ignore them.  Just remember to purge the air that you put in to allow for expansion when freezing, before injecting with the frozen pinz.

Quote from MSHie on 05/23/07 at 07:43:23:

 
Thanks MSHie I appreciate it!  
 
Ok, to purge the air that I put in to allow for expansion when freezing... I don't quite understand, can you explain? How does one purge the air? (my lack of English vocabulary is the cause here).  
 
Oh and does anybody know how long I should leave the syringes out of the freezer before using them? A few minutes? 30 minutes?

hey PB good to see you taking the plunge, yeh when you get the syringe out the freezer it only takes 5 minutes for it to unfreeze and ready to inject.. and the pin has never given me any sort of freezer burn lol, also as MSHie mentioned it may cause the plunger to push back itself.. ive noticed mine have done this as i did not think to inject any extra air for expansion before freezing.. but the plunger has moved back itsself and none has seemed to be wasted so ive been lucky there. good luck with your trial , looking forward to hearing your results.

MSHie: I will definitely try this out with my next vial! Thanks!
 
uktanner: Thanks a lot and I'll keep in mind what you said!
 
truetype1gingerboy: Thanks! It'll be interesting to see how it goes for us type 1's and best of luck to you as well. To answer your question it's simple.. I'm using sterile water since I can't get bacteriostatic water. That's the only reason I'm freezing the syringes (avoiding bacteria to form which it's more prone to do in sterile water than bw).

LOL, Leg presses always had that affect on me  
 

Day 4 - 2 mgs in
 
This morning was no different from the others. Once my little friend is up, he stays there for a bit. But if I don't wake him up, he doesn't bother me.
 
Today I went to the gym to do some shoulders and ABS. Surprisingly, the ab workout didn't upset my stomach at all. I felt a little itchy after the workout on the sides of my legs and there are like these small red dots. Haven't seen this before and I have no idea whether it's related to the drug. But it's nothing that's bothering me just yet. I'll keep an eye on it though. I don't know when I should expect hyperpigmentation, there's none in my face although I THINK there are a couple of tiny dark dots on my arms... But hey, I like them
 
4th injection
It's about 10 minutes since I injected and I'm feeling good actually. Sweating just a little but the sides don't feel as strong. Don't know if that's normal. When I pulled out the needle I saw a little blood come out for the first time. I don't know if I'm imagining things but is there any reason to believe that acne might increase while on this drug? I think I saw someone talk about it decreasing. Not sure here, anyone? Nothing else to report for now.
 
P.S. COULDN'T TAKE PHOTOS TODAY EITHER!!! Too damn sunny! Let there be clouds tomorrow!

Day 6 - 3 mgs in
 
No new side effects to report
 
Just took a few pictures (at about 4:15 AM - it's unbelievably bright outside here in the summer, 24/7). Will post them tomorrow. I was waiting for a day without sun but my patience has come to an end so the nighttime was the best time since it doesn't get dark at all. Hyperpigmentation is minimal. I do notice some spots getting a little darker but it doesn't bother me AT ALL. I even think it's kind of cool  
 
6th injection
Just shot into one of my love handles. I got a little blood coming up when drawing the needle out. This is the second time that happens. Not worried but I was wondering if that only happens when you draw back the melanotan II in the syringe to see if you've hit a blood vessel. I did that now and the other time I saw blood coming out. So I'm guessing that's why.
 
I guess I'm always just a little nervous about putting the needle in. My mind tells me "oh boy this is gonna hurt" even though I know it won't. It's just something about stabbing yourself with a pointy little thing that bugs me But not so much really. I wish this was legal so I wouldn't have to be so secretive about what I'm doing. Anyways One step closer to a tan!
 
(forgot to press post some hours ago )